We Made it!
August 16, 2016
If you know me, "We made it!" is a common phrase in my speech. I love to celebrate accomplishments wether big or small remembering the challenges that come along with them makes it a big deal! So when "we made it" I like to celebrate.
Year 1 is in the books. It is crazy to think about. Last year at this time I was walking down the isle to commit the rest of my life to one man, Rusty. I had no idea what I was getting myself into, but man it is the best decision ever! I am blessed beyond belief to do life with such a kind, loving, caring, selfless, sweet, uplifting, personable, gentle, genuine, funny, joyful, godly man. I never would have predicted what this first year would have looked like, thankfully, otherwise I may have run away screaming, but I am so thankful it happened as it did.
Tuesday was our anniversary. It started off so well with a breakfast date. Sadly, I had to work that night so as far as a formal celebration we didn't get to do anything until Saturday, which was an amazing day, but I'll get to that later. Here's a bit of a back story, if you didn't already know I have started an internship at a gym that I have been working out at. It's for the summer and it's teaching functional movements in a class setting. It's been good so far, and I'm learning a lot. It's definitely different than personal training. I started when we got back from Arkansas and the only shifts that I can cover are in the evenings, I have clients in the mornings, so that's why I can't help out for them then. I started and am working Monday-Thursday from about 5-10 most nights. The shift isn't long, but the timing has been hard, especially when I'm up at 5 the next morning to train clients and eating dinner at like 10-10:30 at night. Woo it's been an adjustment, but it's been a good experience so far. All of that to say, Rusty has had the evenings to himself and our routine has changed a little bit. So Tuesday night, Rusty made plans for a meeting, totally makes sense. I have encouraged him to take advantage of the extra time. However, I happened to get off work a little earlier Tuesday night and I was thrilled because it was our 1 year anniversary. Well, little did I know, his meeting got started late and he wasn't going to be home for another hour. Guys, I got pissed. I cried because I really wanted to spend that extra time with him, but I also let my mouth get the best of me and made him feel pretty bad about it. And it wasn't really even his fault. So our first year will go down with us having a big fight. It's humbling to know we don't even always make the good days joyful. Man, have I learned how selfish I am. Luckily, we talked it out with each other and the next day we had a meeting with our counselor and talked through most of it and how we deal with conflict. Again, we are still learning we have a lot to learn. And we are really learning the importance of getting to know your spouse. Once you're married, they are your priority and learning how they work and don't work is important, so we can learn how to love them best. Man...that is hard, sacrificial and so stinking humbling.
Haha so what did we learn after a year: we are not perfect. And we are very different. Thank goodness we have a God who has redeemed us. But I can still say I made the best decision ever by marrying Rusty. He has stood by my side during some of the hardest moments of life. Crazy, it's been over a year already and it's crazy what this year has been like, but I wouldn't change it for the world.