I'm not scared to be seen, I make no apologies, THIS IS ME
So if you seen or listened to The Greatest Showman you know this song This Is Me.
SOOOO GOOD. This has been an anthem in my life the past couple of years. If you happen to watch the filming of this with the cast and team (not the official video), you will see a powerful scene. It gives me goosebumps watching it. The emotions behind her singing are SO intense. And I can understand why.
Our culture has told us so many lies. Often we play the comparison game and the message is: I'm not enough, she's better than me, I suck, I'm worthless, I'm unloveable, I'm unworthy. So many of these phrases run through our heads and so often we lose what's so important. If you believe in Christ, it's why he came and died. He said YOU ARE WORTHY. YOU ARE LOVED. YOU ARE PERFECT. I've made you just the way you are. We've gotten so caught up in culture and image to define us and we forget to empower those around to live the lives they were meant to live. Not anyone else. We are all uniquely made and beautifully made. Ah, how I want to communicate this to young, middle aged, older, strong, meek, timid, confident, sporty, girly, introverted, extroverted, all types of women to KNOW AND BELIEVE this message.
I have experienced so much self doubt these past few years and life has been messy. I have been told by so many people I'm not good enough, or I don't have IT. For years I have been told I'm nothing, or worthless. I don't know how many times I sat in church and people iterated in my ears that I am NOTHING, without God. But here's the simple beautiful empowering truth. THERE IS GOD! There is no life without him. If we believe what John 3:16 clearly states God so loved the WORLD that he gave his one and only son, that WHOSOEVER believes in him will be saved. He states CLEARLY that he LOVES EVERYONE-THE WHOLE WORLD. The is no world without God. So I get it, if God didn't exist, I would be nothing. BUT GOD DOES EXIST. So church STOP telling everyone they are NOTHING. AH! Instead why don't we empower people to go and be the person GOD HAS CREATED THEM TO BE. That is the WILL OF GOD.
This was never a proclamation of comfort or stability or conforming to the culture. He never said life was simple or easy. But it's MEANINGFUL. Life in God's will is one that he made for you. Individually. Perfectly. Only for you.
I'm turning a new page. I'm committing to my business. It's not practical to many people. It doesn't provide a steady income yet. It's not perfect. It's not stable yet. But I feel compelled and called to do what God has made ME to do.
What is that? I want to empower women and men to know that they have a purpose to be them. That taking care of their health can lead to a full life. To be counter cultural and remind people that life can be meaningful. That yes we have responsibilities and stressors, but there are healthy ways to deal with. I want women to think and believe they can do things they never thought possible. I want a young girl to come up to me and say, I want to be a professional runner. And I'm going to encourage her to go for it. I want to be that catalyst for women to do things that scare them. I want them to surprise themselves. I want them to believe in themselves. I want people to feel they can dream. I want them to pursue the life God meant them to live.
I'm going to guide women in nutrition and fitness and overall wellness. I want them to find confidence in themselves. To look into the mirror and believe they are powerful, capable women. I want women and people with insecurities to be confident in saying "I'm not scared to be seen, I make no apologies, this is ME."
We don't have to be ashamed to be ourselves. Shame is not of God. Yes, sacrifice is part of it. This dream I have is not an easy one. I've tried running from it. I've tried finding jobs to fulfill me. I've seeked out all sorts of different things. But this is my dream and I believe it's not for me, but it's for all those out there who think they can't. It's for all those who feel they are not worthy of love. It's for all those who don't believe in themselves. It's for everyone who's been told they are not enough. For everyone who thinks they are nothing. Because YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL. and made with PURPOSE.